Anyone else? Give yourself Grace

I am currently learning new skill. I am so frustrated with myself because I feel like I am not catching on like I should and my friend is the one teaching me. I am giving myself no grace and need to not be so mad at myself. I'm just worried she's going to get frustrated as well and decide this isn't worth her time. While Ray was patiently sitting with me tonight I was not super nice to him not mean just complaining about myself. He was so nice and kept telling me I would catch in eventually it doesn't happen over night. Why do we do these things to ourselves? It really is something I want to learn and that I know I can learn. But I'm not a spring chicken anymore. Believe me I am totally feeling the "you can't teach a old dog new tricks" vibe right now. 

First Sunday of the Year

 

New Years Eve Friends Party

We made good use of Pinnocks addition this month.  We also played Family Feud, it was so much fun.

We love being together and our kids enjoy each other too which makes it even better.

 

Last Days of December

Babysitting Sophie - She loves Ray

CPAP appointment and actual machine

Lunch with the FAM

I need this shirt.  Especially after seeing how many pictures I took during December.  And that doesn't even include the videos.

 

Christmas Night Friend Party

 

Christmas Day

 

Christmas Eve

This is what mom was so excited to open

Getting these freaks to be serious is quite a chore.  But I sure do love them.

 

Bookclub Birthdays Bunco & Busyness

 

December Sillyness

 

Catchup of 2021 - Here I Go

 

I want to change women's lives

One of these days I'm going to do it. I want to be a coach and help people be their best selves. Maybe it can be training on how to make friends. That I am good at and who doesn't need friends? I'm going to make it happen. What and see. 

Crazy Life todays date

 I know I have said this before and I will forever say it again.  I really would like to be able to keep this blog caught up so I can write on it in real time when I need to.  I play catch up a lot and then I have forgetting some of the most important details of the stories.  I don't do this blog for other people, even though I realize some of you do actually still read it and thanks.  But I print it off each year and make a book so I have record of what we did that year.  Some years are worse some are better, but we are so busy right now.  Sometimes I feel like my life and things I do are not for me but for others in my family.  I know pity party right.  I am really thinking I am having some sort of midlife crisis and have had a few little meltdowns lately.  I think a lot of it does have to do with my busy schedule and the many things I am trying to do.  I am feeling a little stagnant at my job right now but I am thankful for my job.  So, this is my nice midlife crisis post even though there is so much more to tell.

The Ongoing Saga of the Eyes

 

December 2nd day 2

 

December 2021 Eye Surgery

As promised, here it is.  These were at the doctors office.  And yes I was awake for the whole thing.

Ray took really good care of me all day.

 

Proceed with Caution Eye Surgery December, 2021

I won't post any actual surgery pictures until the next post, but if you have a queazy stomach at all you've been warned.  I decided that since we had met our out of pocket deductible this year I would see if the insurance would pay for an eye lift for me, since my eye lids cover half my eye.  I am going to need it done eventually and I thought it was a good idea if I could get it done while Ray can still see enough to drive me and take care of me.  The insurance agreed that it medically necessary, yay.  So, here it the fun process of that crazy surgery.  The next picture is outside the doctors office, a little before picture if you will.

They actually did the procedure in office.  They numbed my eyelids, but I was awarek during the whole thing. Ray was able to watch the whole thing and take a few pictures.  I will post some of them, but not all of them, you're welcome.
 

My Happy Place

 Jerika and Cade came to church with us to listened to Ray speak.  Afterward they came over for dinner and watched movies with us.  Sometimes is hard because we don't get to spend as much time together as we would like and its a little harder because Cade's family moved here last year so we have to share them a little more than normal.  So, when I get everyone together at my house it is something that I really appreciate and love that we are together.